Monday, August 31, 2009

had a very awkward dinner with my friend.
received a phonecall from a christian brother.
felt really encouraged. =)



Saturday, August 29, 2009

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go



Friday, August 28, 2009

anyway, i received an email saying registration are closed for SC run this year due to overwhelming response. 50000ppl have already signed up.

what is puzzled me was that since its gonna be a new balance goodie bag this year, why still the ENTHUness?? lol
maybe not everyone runs solely for the goodie bag like me. LOL

which reminds me, i have a lot of running to do now. *sigh*

happy birthday bro!

when u left, i was at my lowest point.
now, its already been more than a year since.
i missed u, so so much.

i am struggling, but i will fine =).

i hope u r doing okay where ever u are now.



I love you bro....



Thursday, August 27, 2009

you were the best in me.
u were all i could ever wanted, wad i would loved to dream of.
u pulled my hand above the clouds and lived on number 9.
u saw the best there was in me.
u made sure no thunderstorms were dark.
u were my rising smile to a great morning.
u lift me up when i could reach.
u gave me faith cause you believed.
i am everything i am, because u loved me.

we painted pictures of our favourite colour, and our favourite places, with our faces in it.
we saw each other's worse and best.
we never leave out the chance to gourge on food.
we were not the richest people, but we made sure we enjoyed every last penny together.


u never knew how much i loved u, u never knew how ur name sounded like a ghost around me.

we might never belong anymore.
but i am always thankful for u.
sorry that i am so into u.



Monday, August 24, 2009

life has its' twists that makes u lose ur breathe from time to time.

but i am truly thankful to God for u.
thank you for,
falling down with me, make it not so bad.
showing me more than what i deserved.
picking me up when i was at my lowest.
listening to my whining when no one really understands.

because of u,
i know i can be stronger.
i know i am not alone.
i know life can be better.
i can see things clearer.

thank you so so much =)



Sunday, August 23, 2009

got this from syaza's blog which i tot was really very very meaningful.

The Strength of a Man..

The strength of a man isn't seen with the width of his shoulders.
It's in the width of his arms that encircle you.

The strength of a man isn't in the deep tone of his voice,
It's in the gentle words he whispers.

The strength of a man isn't how many buddies he has,
It's how good a buddy he is with his children.

The strength of a man isn't how hard he hits,
It's how tender he touches.

The strength of a man isn't in the hair on his chest,
It's in his heart, that lies within his chest.

The strength of a man isn't how many women he's loved,
It's in being true to one woman.

The strength of a man isn't in the weight he can lift,
It's in the burdens that he can carry.

went back early morning yesterday.
reach back home, chilled for a while with ah joo and the rest.
then came yanming and family.
did our fav pasttime. (gambling) i managed to grow a 50cent coin into 5 ringgit. NOT BAD UH
played with JACKY and his twin brother. they were the cutest pair of dogs. reminded me of marley!
went to play badminton with ah joo and his friends.
had a really hard time keeping up with them. m'sians are damn good at badminton. made me realised how much i SUCKED.
he had funny friends and i really had fun working it out, thou i still felt the wobbly thighs from the previous night's run while playing.
went to eat at a restaurant called FAT LEE which totally costed a bomb to dine at.
went to jonker street and got a 20ringgit LV wallet. HAHAHA
went back to drink a few glass of barcardi and watch the 3 flowers play mahjong for a while.
sleep.
woke up at 10 to go visit ah ma. its been 3 years already. 31/07/06.
i refrained from holding the jossstick to worship the guan yin and got labelled as PAN TU by my irritating cynthia.
went to eat at some coffeeshop with everyone.
went on our separate ways.
went to visit po po(mummy's mum).
went to jaya jusco. (had an absolutely great time of retail therapy.)
bought 4 tops, including a bright pink polo's polo tee. HAHA
drove at the msian highways at 140, which was a totally great experience. esp so when i have yet to get my license. =D
saw 5 Lamborghinis sped past me at the highway. DAMN COOL.

a happy boy now. =D



Friday, August 21, 2009

went to the msia embassy today with a high spirit cuZ it was friday.

got so pissed off later by a series of unfortunate events.

but now, its all over, and i'm smiling again. not toally appeased, cause i still think the system there sucked. =)

thanks to a few peeps who made my day better! =D



Friday, August 14, 2009

so i see what it is all about. the second time this is happening.

what happens when u put in ur best and it all counts for nothing?

what happens when u are always getting pushed away?




everytime u threw away everything i had away so easily, expecting me to cmlib as if i as if nothing had happened.

i'm broken. i'm tired.


i got lectured before but i nv cared. never saw it coming again so soon.


i will learn to breathe again






Hello, good morning, how ya do?
What makes your rising sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new

So this is the way
that I say that I need You
This is the way
This is the way

That I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and
You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how ya been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never thought I could fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad

I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and
You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies


dear Father, keep me close.

back to square 1 again.
i will be strong with God's help.
mend the hurt, give me strength to walk on.

grant me a patient heart, a loving mind.



Friday, August 07, 2009

i planned to spend some time alone after meeting KP at douby.

planned to walk for a bit by myself before going home.
i sat down at the park. tears started coming. then i couldnt stop.
dried it up went for a long walk, ended up breaking down twice.

i realised i can adapt to being alone too. crying alone.

life goes on.





那一條牙膏 在對我傻笑 嘲笑我永遠用不掉
想睡就睡 想鬧就鬧 好快樂少了人嘮叨
藍色的碗盤 多買了一套
我忘了沒人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角 無辜的陪笑
才會讓我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑 借著熱鬧 掩蓋著心跳
邊哭邊笑 偏要說著 一個人真好
當人群散了 突然覺得我可以死掉 我受不了

還在搞笑 害怕回家 不知怎麼熬
這麼多年 早就喜歡 有你的撒嬌
我想我能熬 但是至少要讓我知道 你好不好

我們的小狗 食量變好小 眼神裡常常顯得無聊
它習慣睡覺的床尾 少了一雙腳
所以他常常看著門口睡不著

我在搞笑 借著熱鬧 掩蓋著心跳
邊哭邊笑 偏要說著 一個人真好
當人群散了 突然覺得我可以死掉 我受不了

我在搞笑 卻在最后 眼淚拼命掉
你的離開 失去多少 我計算不了
忙完了一天 突然覺得又何必辛勞 對誰炫耀

還在搞笑 是否擁有 麻痺的療效
唱一夜歌 卻避不開 催淚的曲調
我徹夜胡鬧 希望聽到有人會提到 你好不好



Tuesday, August 04, 2009

一了百了 (Yi Liao Bai Liao) - 信乐团 (Xin Yue Tuan)



the lyrics suits what my heart would went thru now.
but i should rejoice because i have more opportunity to grow nearer to You.