Friday, January 23, 2009

i saw this entry in syaza's blog, and i felt it was really meaningful. not her entry to me, but from me to the one i hold dear. =)
she used to say this to me.
i guess i really love her. =)


You know a person loves you if the person puts you as his top priority..
knows every little thing about you..
yes.. I mean everything..
from what you wear..
your bad habits..
your likes & dislikes..
and the list goes on..

I'm so glad I've found him..

P.S.: Syaza, i'm just quoting it because its meaningful okay? no other meaning. dun worry! =D

i was reading "the road" before my current "twilight"
and i came upon this really nice verse which goes,

"All things of grace and beauty such that one holds them to one's heart have a common provenanace in pain."

it depicts about this journey in a postapocalyptic world between a father and his son, and the only thing that give them strength is their love for each other. both of their worlds, sustained by love.

its really confusing and boring at the start...but it brings u on their journey and at the end of the day, you would find the beauty of the book lies not in the ending but in the process itself. i recommend it. =)

my v good friend gave me two few lines which i tot was really really meaningful, and i love them. =)

"Life gets hard. Bad things happen. When your world falls apart, it feels like you are living in darkness. You see no end to the pain. But God promises that He is with you, and that the light will return and the pain will subside."

"He will carry you through the darkness, and when the sun comes out, he will give you renewed joy. Although you may feel like you can’t make it through this, remember that God is bigger than your circumstances and that this too will pass. "

"He will carry you through the darkness, and when the sun comes out, he will give you renewed joy. Although you may feel like you can’t make it through this, remember that God is bigger than your circumstances and that this too will pass. "

hee.. i'm really encouraged by it.

anyway.. i'm going back tml le..for new year..
i really hope for a good change in this new year..
i had a really bad start...i hope things would start to turn out brighter..
please..i pray.



maybe this is a trial i need to face.. but its kinda taking a big toll on me.



Wednesday, January 14, 2009

There was a blonde who found herself sitting next to a Lawyer on an airplane. The lawyer just kept bugging the blonde wanting her to play a game of intelligence. Finally, the lawyer offered her 10 to 1 odds, and said every time the blonde could not answer one of his questions, she owed him $5, but every time he could not answer hers, he'd give her $50.00. The lawyer figured he could not lose, and the blonde reluctantly accepted.

The lawyer first asked, "What is the distance between the Earth and the nearest star?"

Without saying a word the blonde handed him $5. then the blonde asked, "What goes up a hill with 3 legs and comes back down the hill with 4 legs?"

Well, the lawyer looked puzzled. He took several hours, looking up everything he could on his laptop and even placing numerous air-to-ground phone calls trying to find the answer. Finally, angry and frustrated, he gave up and paid the blonde $50.00

The blonde put the $50 into her purse without comment, but the lawyer insisted, "What is the answer to your question?"

Without saying a word, the blonde handed him $5.



Tuesday, January 13, 2009

so many movies i wanna watch

redcliff2
7pounds
terminator salvation..

so many more!

please..find me if u have no one to watch with yes? hahaha

why am i always revolving around others..
what am i to them..

i need to feel appreciated too.
i really cant help but feel v we qu.

its getting really sickenin nowadays.



Sunday, January 11, 2009

anyway..
i went to the spinnovex yesterday and i came upon this machine which supposedly gives an accurate reading on ur bmi and blood pressure.

and damn i'm still a wee bit worried coz my blood pressure is surprising high!!! lol
higher than the rest in the group leh!!!

does tt mean that when i cut my vein, its gonna pop like a fire hose?
does tt mean that when i get angry, i can become the hulk?

haha...jokes aside..
i was supposedly one with low blood pressure in the past..
is it because of the stuff i eat? lol

got myself emo at the top view last night..
i felt very very uneasy the whole of the night also..
its aching so much inside..
i wanna safekeep my heart somewhere..protected from harm.. =(

but i still had fun with them.. =)
i sang and i thought i was drunk with green tea.. hopefully i didnt bored them with my monotonous singing.. haha!


basic comin in a few days.. i think i better get start soon! shit..

these is my blog song..
quite meaningful

不懂你的心究竟躲着什么
不懂为什么要我放开手
不懂爱情为何不长久
好想对你说,说不愿就此分手
你只是默默对我摇摇头
微笑说我们永远是做朋友
永远有多远我看不见
爱在一瞬间说变就变
你曾是我的地平线
想围绕你沉浮起落日夜直到永远
永远有多远我泪眼看不见
爱在一瞬间变成冷漠的拒绝
泪水苦又咸流成汪洋一片
情人和朋友之间爱太远
一天天天转地旋喧闹的世界不停歇
一夜夜夜长梦多躲进了回忆的枷锁
风花雪月的承诺烟消云散不再有
你还在说在说在说分手以后可以永远做朋友



Tuesday, January 06, 2009

firstly... i'm having a break until sun. just the thing to make me smile~ =D

secondly... CPC just ended.. and i got good comments about it! =D

3rdly.. may 12 sounds kinda nearer now it seems...

W.A.H.A.H.A.H.A



Monday, January 05, 2009

i was blog hopping and i chanced upon my long-time-no-see-but-often-remembered friend's blog,

and she quotes;

and it just seems like there's a million other people with relationship issues.
its never fun to be weak.
do your heart a favour, let it go. when it becomes a routine, it wouldnt hurt anymore.
i'd be happier when you're.
i'd still be here.




its nice and sweet, just what i would wanna say to you. =)
I'll learn to set my priorities right.






Sunday, January 04, 2009

lousy me nearly cried in front of her..
on my way back i realised tt why she suffocated, was because i was sensitive, and she had no feelings for me anymore.

i'll prepare myself to leave ur future the way it is




a future without me.



Saturday, January 03, 2009

我伪装着
不露痕迹的
想在你身边
静静的陪着看着天边
骑着单车
往前行进着
某个路口
爱在等着
你往前走
不回头看了
记忆的笑脸
缓缓的敲着我的琴键
我不舍得
让你孤单单的
我爱你的
心牵挂着
心不再拼命躲
不去害怕结果
假设有个以后
你会怎么说 一直想跟你说
幸福不再溜走
下个路口
你会看见爱
有美丽笑容
爱转角遇见了谁
是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街
能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁
是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解
让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪
不让你掉眼泪
现在永远
你就是我
就是我的美


i love you.. but would u come back to me?



hui lai hao ma? i really really miss u.

i used to only know how to cherish, only when its gone..
but now.. why does it leave me when i'm really using my heart to cherish?

my heart broke that night.



i became a oversized crybaby. because everytime i think about her, everytime i remember what u said about how u felt, everytime i read ur past messages.. i felt hurt, i cant help but just weep.

did u really meant whatever u said?


i reminised the recent past and also realised tt the distance had been there all along.. i was dumb not to felt it.

Maybe i'm just plain detestable, maybe i didnt learn how to love her properly.



but am i still her dumb prince charming?

does she still have me in her future?



i felt totally lost tt night. everything went down from there on..





please let me be strong..
please let me emo for a few days, just a few days.



i'll stand up tall again.. =)



Thursday, January 01, 2009

Happy new year to all!!!
i hope this year would be a better year ahead.. =)

no point complaining..
dun wanna steal the breathing space..

you went out with many and 2 guys that i felt most insecured with..
u spent ur new year with them.
everyone asked me why am i spending it alone.
u neither called nor messaged, u only showed me impatience.
one whole night i was sleepless, so nervously thinking about u..
yet nothing..
nothing from u..
u promised me stuff that u wont do.
u showed me totally no concern..


if u want me to treasure ur heart..
u should start treasuring mine too..




i wan this future..our future..