Friday, November 30, 2007

oh shit oh shit oh shit...
i got selected for combat engineer second test...
i pray hard i dun get into combat e...



Thursday, November 29, 2007

so many things happened lately,

from the lost of my loved one to the loss of some people whom were very impt to others..

how relationships has come and go..

how things just screw up, and when we can just hopelessly watch..

i truly understand how they feel bout it..i truly do.

coz i had a similar experience not too long ago..

its sad but i think thru all these, it has really humbled me and times to calm down and think about how we should seriously start to cherish our loved ones..

my family is undergoing some financial difficulties, and so many other struggles are happening..

but i guess its during these times when everyone is suffering that i have to stand strong..



hope everyone is going strong..

i have to go report for parade le.. :/



Sunday, November 18, 2007

today was the cremation of my grandpa..
thou i wasnt there, but i felt it in the morning, amidst training.. was rather low..
thoughts flew around and i felt the pain again..

first half of the day was really shitty, had to do my tests and then go for this combat E interview.
i am a P.R. just in case you didnt know, so i didnt really know why someone like mi, whose path is to be a PC in tekong, would be having such interviews..
i really dun wanna go combat E.. hahah! wanna stay in infantry and chiong sua~
so i ended bookin out at 6, reach home at 7, quickly prepared myself and flew off to aloha loyang..

so now i am all alone at home, back not too long ago from the two sister's birthday.
was nice to see old faces again la...just got a bit guilty being one of the most log cork guy there..lol

had a tiring week.. definitely am counting down to the end of service term =)
5 weeks plus to go!



Friday, November 16, 2007

many might not expect this but something quite terrible for me happened.
one year ago, i saw my granny left this earth with a very sick state.
the pain was very unbearable, the lost of someone to dote u really makes u learn how to cherish someone more..
so it was kinda hard for mi to accept that my grand dad has past away yesterday.
when i received the sms and calls, it was quite stunning, then the pain started kicking in...
i am just sad because he was afterall my grandpa, even thou not many of his children really thought of him as a great father.i kinda regretted not having more time with him because of my national obligations. he wanted so much to just go home..when i last saw him at the home, it was really saddening as i was reminded that granny left us not too long ago, and my granddad has someone less to bicker with.

he was always so lonely, travelling and being the lone ranger in the family, thou his stingy, but he was nevertheless thrifty. personally, i always pitied him and had intentions to treat him better as my grandpa. but regrets are not new in my life..guess departures like tt are just part and parcels of life ba, i just need to reconsolidate my mind a little and i will be fine..

maybe he should have just stayed home, maybe my uncles should have just let him stay at home, since he was so attached to it.. its really sad that even before he departed he couldnt even fulfill his last wish..
i wish i could be there at least at the cremation, but i will still be stuck here..thou its still hard to accept it..

i hope my family would be fine..
i pray for strength to be strong, and not breakdown in front of them



Sunday, November 11, 2007

yesterday.
went out with a special someone, and even thou it was just a simple meet up, it was really enjoyable. =) *sweet*

i went for azizah wedding today and spent just a while there and it was fun. having to see someone whom u knew from sch getting married. hehe, caught up with the old mates and it was quite nice to see them =)


i sent her the sms today.


and i'm really elated that she agreed =)
beyond what words could express, i am a happy man =D

all the preparation for field camp just somehow seem simpler now. lol

i'll always be there for u thru it all! =)



Thursday, November 08, 2007

before i blog anything about deepavali, i guess i will blog about my last weekend first. =)
went out to meet taurus and had a nice good time even thou we didnt do anything much, i enjoyed their presence. =) ate at waraku which has very nice noodles sia..

then went to meet tat siong and gang, had a good catching up and watch MAN U and Liverpool showdown at some bar at boat quay. then went to mac for further catching up, Syaza then caught up with us and then we even more catching up with a few cracks of lame riddles. haha!

on the sunday, i went out with someone special! =) catch the "game's plan" which was a very nice show and had lunch at vil'age before that, before i had to rush home for book in (sounds so sad hor)
but then, it was a sunday well spent, with great company =D =D

life has been going quite okie in alpha wing, guess i am quite used to the life already..
just that the busiest part of this term is gonna unfold soon..i pray for the best.
just hope for my birthday to come soon, coz by then, i guess the toughest part of the term would have past le.. =) although its a bit sad having to spend my birthday in camp la...hahahaa

okie...now i shall blog about my deepavali...
hahaha...actually there is nothing much to blog about because i have been spend half of book out doing some homework...haha! i cant reveal what i did so dun ask.
but man...i had the best sleep in ages..
and i felt super fresh and revitalised.. =)

sorry if i am getting to busy for some of u guys... its really not my choice..
miss u guys! take good care and meet up soon hor

some of the main events coming up:

azizah wedding (makes mi feel so old. hahaa)
qi's birthday (need to start to scout for pressies soon!)


so...

before i go off i would just like to pray for all my beloved!
pray for those going thru the same phrase as mi, pray for those whom are also struggling along with tough patches in their life, and also, i wanna pray for well being of someone whom has been facing some sickness this period of time. =)

let me be strong..
let me be patient..
let me learn to love even more..
let me be more than i can be..



Sunday, November 04, 2007

i'd do anything
anything for that genuine smile of urs

when i returned from field camp,
my wing announced something, which made me really really damn low..
sigh..

but anyway

nice songs with meaningful lyrics

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
that you belong with me

you might think
I don't look
but deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm

I'm weak
it's true
cause I'm afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
i'ts time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

you don't know
what you do
everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak
it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you met me

I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
the way that's true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true =) =)