Sunday, October 05, 2008

i just went to NUH the day before to visit hannan, my bro in arms when i was going thru OCS with, and i saw him in quite a bad state with a tube inserted into his chest as there was signs of lung collaspe when he felt chest pain in camp.

and then i realised tt life could be just so fragile, and after tt thought finished its say, raymond came into picture along with the guy whom recently just past away after doing chin ups.
it quite disheartening but sometimes, fate just grasp u in the way u never u would be.

but i am cool, not getting emo over anything. just wanted to share.

i've to keep check of my emo status now or else subconciously i would fall again. hahaha

after doing some soul searching, i realise tt thou i lost a lot of social life outside, but i've gained much inside too. i received comments from my recruits and yes, i got a little bit light. but i wasn't flying yet. hahaha..
but its always satisfying to know at the end of the day, no matter what shit u have been put thru behind the scenes, just to make stuff happen, ppl still appreciates u in the end. sometimes, its just heart.
why i suddenly thought of this was because i met a guy whom called to me while i was leaving from BZ party. honestly, i didnt know who the hell tt guy was. but he started talking to me about where he got posted to and stuff and i knew he must be from my first batch. but he wasnt even from my platoon, maybe only because he knows me as the 2IC. so, its nice to know tt ppl still remembers u and is willing to acknowledge u outside. is this so called touching hearts and minds? i definitely hope so. =)


if u still were to give me a choice at the end of the day, i would still not want to be a 2IC. i would rather be a PC. God pull me thru this 7 months fast please











another point to ponder. ever wondered if u were in my shoes one day, a PR NSF, finding his motivation to protect the nation as a way of protecting his way of life, and one day u realized a war had to break out between the country which where u were born and s'pore. where would u stand if u had loved ones to protect on both side?