Sunday, December 30, 2007

i had been a very cheerful, contented guy in this early part of the year..
i thought it would be the best happening year to me..

never knew it would end with half the world crashing down on me..


i am at home after out with those guys..
i am thinkin about really a lot of stuff right now..
so many stuff..endless struggles inside me..
i have to fight them..

went out with 66th and its really nice to be out with them..
really glad to see all of them again..
even thou i was very tired out from last night..

ok..let me elaborate..
i had the weirdest combi outing yesterday..
i went out with hui yu yi xiang and jun hao..
never expected tt this would all happen.. haha

but i had lotsa fun, help me feel better..
made another new friend =)


went out with 66th to have lotsa catching up and having fun and just messing around at julian place, with a dinner as finale for me..
was quite sad, affected about leaving.. but yea..
the struggles never end..

talk about our age today and everyone was just showing off their age..
which brought me back to my buddy whom didnt had chance to live to his 21st birthday.. i felt very sad.. i emo-ed for a while..

which brings me back to the beach on the night before where i emo-ed and tear quite a lot at the beach while reminising about me and my buddy..
guess i still haven really gotten over him yet.. thanks for the shoulder girl =)

and so i went on to walk along the ocean edge, and i saw my foot prints being washed off by the sand when i look back..
guess it kinda reminded me of how life is..
like how u r making the footprints..every second is for each own..once past, there will be never a same footprint there again.. =)
but it also tells me tt things will eventually end.. no matter good or bad..


sigh..
i haven been so emotional for years..
i really cant help it..
i feel very terrible being like tt also..

i need to control myself..i dun wanna step into the picture tt u have finally carved again..
i need to move on..







i need to break down soon..






who would stay with me on this lonely night..
i hate to think so much..

i just wanna go out to the beach, have a good shout..with a good cry..

its all but a fleeting dream..
please hold me back...before i lose myself again..