Monday, July 02, 2007

we had a match today, against EEE.

if u're jus interested in cutting short,

we lost. 4-1.

things were looking really good. we almost seemed to be owning the first match.
but then, after we let in our very first goal, we lost it. our concentration, our focus, our temper.
we lost to our emotions.

during the second match everyone was practically in a war. a fight of body masses and career ending tackles. emotions flew, tackles were relentless. i'm thankful no one got seriously injured.
nasir got flag out for something which wasnt his fault. got that poor guy all emotional during and after the match. really felt sorry for him. zai got so pissed he went down hard on one of the guys. i made a lot of blunders myself. i'm really sorry shah. i could feel your pain.

but its jus a game. we can do better next time.

i noe its not something to be really proud of. but i just felt a need to blog down on my virgin goal.
the only thing tt relieved me after the whole match. it was a cross, the keeper slipped it to the right. went for the ball in between two defenders and pushed it in. its really..a freaking nice feeling to see how the ball actually rolled in. i dunno how to put tt feel into words. but you get it dont ya? ;)

but overall, the whole team including was really sad for our loss.

its like, the feel of a real match and the normal kickabouts really differ a lot.
field soccer feels so much heavier. theres no time to think, no time for hesitation, no time for space, no time to aim. everything is set during those few split seconds. and consequences befalls immediately. a whole new level to pressure.

i guess like my sister, i do have v low self esteem too. i got really scared when i first stepped into the field too. because i'm constantly haunted by the pressure that lotsa people are expecting me to fail. the ball seems so heavy every time i get near it. especially when i'm playing defence. because its either i get the ball, or i fail my role.


but this is the past. nothing to regret, nothing to hang around for. the only things we should hold on for the match is the lessons that will make us become better. =)

cage futsal tml. gonna be fun fun fun. =)