Thursday, March 29, 2007

Suddenly outta the blue, several emotions, thoughts, feelings, trapped expressions,
has led me to this place.

things happened, and i've learnt quite a lot. yet i drifted from some impt stronghold of my life too. i guess... sometimes, its okie to get lost, or take a very long detour and make a fool of yourself, coz maybe the most impt thing at the end of the day is tt u can reach your goal.
been feeling some terrible emotions, maybe guys only start to grasp hold of their emotions when they realise they r losing it. and so i learnt, that at the end of the day, even when things get falls like poo and get too hard to go over, life still moves on, somehow, we'll walk over that pile of poo. maybe its jus a matter of how u get over it. some escapes its smell, and stay there for a very long time, or even for the rest of their life. some goes over with the mindset of getting a bath after getting dirty over it.
i guess i was once stuck there for some time. i'm now working my way through it.
being in shit isnt exactly comfy, but life will get better. =)
Afterall, as someone quoted before, "the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, because you cant go on well in life until you let go of your past failure and heartaches."

how true, i'll believe in it.

anyway....been going to sch for soccer, camp stuff and lotsa thing. hmmm... as usual, sorry for sounding crude, but the politics, and rumours, back stabbing, never seem to cease. yet strangely i got accustomed to it. thou sometimes, i get outta control too. i shall control. amen.
yet.. there are so many cases of failure, sadness and stuff, because we r afterall, imperfect. so sometimes, i can only pray tt God will work things out with them. coz at least, i believe God is always there will everyone, always reaching a helping hand, waiting for the other line to pick up.
actually, even i face the same prob. when things sometimes land u up to the tip of a iceberg, where wadever lies below the water is jus false pretense. i've learnt to not develop feelings too deep for some people. yet, i'll still show them love, because, i still wish to see everyone up there one day. but i guess...its really hard for mi to love everyone equally, coz, afterall, i'm not god.
but sometimes, it inevitable tt we have to show love, even to the point of which when we have to expect none in return. guess tts one essence of my faith.

yeap, adventure quest is coming and i'm doing my best to make it happen nicely for the boys, at least on our company side. seems like lotsa fun, rappelling, cycling, kayaking and stuff. wow.
dear Father, pls see me thru!

and wads new is tt i'm kinda in love with maria sharapova. thou she is dating andy roddicks, but she is still hot to me. hahaha...where to find such a babe who aint jus looks?? somehow, sporty girls turn mi on. lolz... i mean, not physically la..jus think tt having a sporty gf in the future would be really nice. =) yeap...but sharapova, is jus someone whom i'd admire. coz admiring itself sometimes is a beauty too. and her pic is taking so long to load...gosh. hopes she wins this ongoing tennis cup! and i wanna learn to play tennis too! lolz

sorry guys, i noe this is the typical long post i normally do after an eon of stagnantity. but i noe u guys have been craving, dying, waiting, and loving this post. right right?? lol. dun say no hor.. this post here can earn money one okie..hee, excluding the last part la of coz..

and so u tot i end here? dream on.



been going downstairs to lay some shots. been sooo long since i touched basketball. yet, it still feels good. gonna keep it a habit. sports for life~


btw, i think i'm looking very uncle, as commented from some friendly people, so i guess, like my SUNSHINE BULK friend(wun tell u who), i'd try to take more care of myself too. no offence bro.
but to many whom feels the same as mi, i noe that there are jus tonnes of reasons and happenings in this world tt jus makes u inferior. i'll state one. i was inferior of my looks, complexion, my ability in sports and stuff, and the list will jus go on and on. but sometimes, life is jus about accepting. guess trying to change stuff tt i cant, will jus make mi stupid. so i hope God will grant mi the serenity to change wad i can, and accept what i cannot.

haven been going to church. got a little... stranded from Home, kinda lost in a way. yet i'll slowly try to find myself back. thou i wont noe when He will come back. yet..i'll do my best. i'm not ready yet.

but sincerely la..if i were to have a gf, i would hope to have a decent, not so good looking one. honest. either tt, or i fight my own emotions. i'll try to trust my girl. sorry if my topics are skipping here and there, but i'm jus blogging down random tots. guess i've to learn to overcome my deepest fears in life. God help me!

and speaking of which, kinda hard to believe i'm entering army soon. okie. i shall share bout whats my fears of NS. actually i have a little desire to try to work myself fit during this two years. but. i'm really afraid of the days when i go back from camp. i'm really afraid of changes. from outside NS. i see friends go, and i enter another phrase of life. bah..it sucks la..even upon jus mentioning. i'm afraid i wont be able to take things. but with reference to my second stanza, i'll be strong. Stoic

before i go, jus wanna reco some movies. 300 is nice, talks bout spartans as decendants from hercules, their abs, their roar of charisma, well... nice show to watch.
rocky balboa also, quite a nice inspiration show.

finally, a moment u've been dying for. the end of my entry. =D